sorry guys.i know i should be studying now,with MSA physics tmr and all.
but i really cant take it.have to find some source to vent my anger.
okay.today i'm so pissed.found out something that added on to my anger.
Nowi can really felt why jen was angry/pissed with her.but i think my case is worse.
i would really like to say to him:
STOP BEING SO DISRESPECTFUL. IF YOU DONT LIKE ME, TOO BAD.
YOU EITHER LIVE WITH IT OR IGNORE IT.DONT COME TO MY FACE AND TELL ME OFF.YOU DO NOT HAVE THE RIGHT TO DO THAT.IF YOU WANNA BLAME, BLAME THAT YOU ARE YOUNGER THAN ME.THIS IS NO LONGER YOUR SEC BAND.SO STOP THROWING YOUR WEIGHTS AROUND ME AND PRETEND LIKE A KIND/GOOD GUY INFRONT OF THE OTHER PEOPLE. when you told me off the first time, i was told to give you another chance.and when i gave you that second chance, you showed attitude to me.and when i was reluctant to give up hope on you, you boast about you telling me off.
Please ah, you are from a respectable sec band so please dont ruin your band reputation by being disrespectful. i dont recognise your band culture being like this.people from my batch from your sec school isnt like this. and if i gave you the impression that you can climb onto my head.sorry ah.
if you disrespect me again.you wont be just getting a black face from me.i will forget about the band-family-bonding and just tell you off.
please adapt to the school/band system.here is no place for you to throw your weights around either in our batch or even your batch. dont think you have a kao shan in my band then you have all the say in the world and act big.
i have never been so angry with a junior before.your sight really just make me puke.
and oh ya.if i'm very quiet or serious beside you, it doesnt mean i'm scared/what of you.it's just that the sight of you makes my blood boil resulting in vomit(s).so to not make the carpet dirty and smelly or play musically bad, i shall just show you my black face.if not once i open my mouth, dirty words/things will start coming out..so you better WATCH IT.

i know i sound very ......... in this post.
but if you were me, you will feel this way too.
this situation is really altimate.
the worse is that only i know the horrible side of him.
everyone is seeing him as a goodie man.
everyone-if you all see his other side, you see it spells as _E_K.
so you guys watch your back too.

i really cant wait for outing with threeplusone tmr and "the group" outing on sunday.
hopefully by then i will forget about him and my spirits will lighten up(:

god, please get this anger out of my heart.and let me concentrate on my physics MSA.
i really would like to pass this physics test.and i hope this anger wont be an obstacle for that.
THANKS(:

now i really broke my record.having to HATE someone and having this anger inside me for so long.

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